One of my favorite phrases is ” Am I allowed to curl up and die yet?”. For a very long time I thought that was the best thing, to have a day were you were allowed to wallow and binge, a release valve day, that you got every few months.
Now I know that it is not a healthy option.
I still say this in my head occasionally. Can I curl up and die yet? Am I allowed to give up yet? But the answer is always no.